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Rudd continues to wonder what time it is

In English, Getting Close, novelish, Writing on January 4, 2011 at 10:27 pm

Rudd said: “What time is it.”

“You keep asking,” he said, without glancing down.

“Well I keep wondering.”

“Then maybe you should have brought a watch.”

“I don’t wear watches.”

He still hadn’t glanced down. “It’s a quarter past two.” A beat. “In the afternoon.”

“No it’s not,” Rudd said. The sun was setting. “Stop being an asshole.”

“How would you know, Rudd? Do you have a watch you aren’t telling me about?”

“Asshole,” Rudd said.

“Not much longer now,” he said.

“How would you know?” Rudd said.

“Because you wouldn’t be so nervous about the time if there was a lot of it to go.”

Rudd nodded. “So what time is it, then?”

“Half past two.” A beat. “In the afternoon.”

“Asshole,” Rudd said.

As they stood in silence as the sun set over the horizon, in the distance smoke billowed like a signal, a plume that trailed into the twilight like snake skin.

“You know what comes next?” he said.

“Nope,” Rudd said. “I rarely do.”

“Fair enough,” he said.

Check it.

In Getting Close, Post Script, What people are on September 10, 2009 at 11:51 am

Check it.  Uncomfort: the feeling when I don’t know what/why/how I’m doing.  Comfort: the feeling that I know what/why/how I’m doing.

The problem is this–Comfort: familiarity.  Familiarity: easy.  Easy: boredom.

Boredom leads to transition, which leads to not knowing what/why/how I’m doing: uncomfort.

Uncomfort and boredom.  To do away with one is to invariably lead to the other.

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Check it.  A girl is good enough for me only when I decide she’s too good for me.  If I decide she’s too good for me–and I get her regardless–she’s decided that I’m good enough for her, which means she’s not too good for me, which means she’s not good enough for me.

How fucked up is that?

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